I consider myself very focused thanks to my almost-daily yoga and meditation practice. For instance, I often have moments of pristine clarity after I finish (or during) a yoga class or my daily meditation sitting. Thanks to an interest in Feng Shui that started in the late 90’s, I am able to unemotionally purge (clothing, household objects, etc.) on a regular basis. Most recently, I have committed not to buy any new clothing items (minus what my husband orders me online) until May.
There’s one thing though that I’m not very disciplined at doing…not buying books! I now have at least six new books I’ve bought since Jan 1st. I’m reading parts of all of them, but will I finish even one of them? I admit it’s a rare occasion when I read and fully enjoy a book from start to finish. Given this book buying addiction has been going on for a few years, I often wonder “what does it mean about me?”
A friend of mine likes to say “well you are a Gemini”. Horoscopes often speak of the multi-interests Gemini’s possess. Isn’t that an excuse though? Our birth sign is really just a general overview of some innate characteristics. As an avid reader of Buddhist & yoga books I have learned everything has an element of impermanence. Meaning, nothing last forever; nothing stays the same; everything changes. This means we can, and ultimately will, change even if our astrological sign describes us as being one way. Again, nothing last forever. Even if the habit or way is deeply ingrained, we can change.
So as I write this…do I need to change? Is it bad that I have a lack of focus and discipline in my book reading? I sometimes feel like I’m the only one with 10 unread books stacked on my bedside table.
By the way, don’t look at the 2010 reading list page on this blog. It’s no longer accurate. Only one of those books is part of the six I’ve bought in the last 1.5 months 🙂 As the Buddha said, nothing stays the same.